# 55 Personal Notes Ro 7:24, Lu 22:44.

23/03/2024

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This section has been added to the blogs, Revelation it's grand climax and Apocolyps or Revelation?.

17/03/24, I had a dream last night.

Satan was trying to argue with me over a scriptural point. At least, I assume it was him or one of his cohorts. I can't recall the scripture, but I quickly replied, "That's not what I meant".

I, instantly became more aware of the test I was undergoing, and I began, as usual, calling him a liar etc and accusing him of being a coward who assaults anyone seeking a close relationship with God, in harmony with Holy Spirit. Although I was saying these things in my thoughts, My wife spoke in her sleep; "Your right", in a muffled voice. Jesus said, "keep on opposing the Devil, and he will flee from you". Jesus also knew he was just a week manipulator.

I was not surprised by being challenged by The Demons in my sleep. All that day, trial after trial. Test after test.

It began by being awoken by my wife, she was explaining that our niece was wanting to hold a birthday party at our home.

My wife and most of my relations have never sought accurate knowledge of truth, Nor a relationship with the Living God. So, Pagan celebrations were of no consequence to them.

Out of regard for my feelings on the matter, such a thing had never been suggested since my dedication to my God.

In my mind, such a celebration is not only of false religious origin, it also is very flawed in it"s actions. For example; why is the day a child set aside to shower them with gifts and love?

Logically, I have always felt, If anything, it should be a day of appreciation for the parents.

For they have caused the birth and what's more, Where is Jehovah in all of this. He, being our creator and Father should be remembered first and foremost.

But, instead the world showers gifts and praise upon the child for accomplishing what?

Are they truly being taught appreciation for their life? Or, are they being given worship, as if for one day per year, simply because the sun rose again? Considering also that the only two Birthdays mentioned in the Bible were for those who were not in a relationship with the Living God, and on both occasions a person had their head cut off, and one of which was John the Baptist. This also should indicate that the occasion is painted by God in a bad light.

Anyway, I explained to my wife, "If they all come here, I will leave for the day".

After saying that, interestingly, alternative arrangements were suddenly made.

Then my daughter brought out a Jigsaw Puzzle for the family to do. I helped sort the pieces and before long noticed it had images of Satan and dragons etc. "I will never let anything worthless pass before my eyes, nor be entertained by the Occult" etc. So I walked away.

And then, as if to pressure me, for some time all I heard was, "This Puzzle, is too hard by myself", "This will take ages doing it ALL alone".

And other things kept on happening, all that day. The final one was a thing that a Baptised Sister suggested to me as if a sign. I counselled Her regarding Omens, so unsurprisingly this was thrust before me.

These creatures, "For I will not say it", were afar off, I heard them coming towards me. I said to myself, "I will ignore them" but, instead of continuing by on their course, they deviated and came straight by me. I just scoffed and laughed to myself, "typical" I thought.

These days come like that from time to time, I don't get upset by them, nor do I take out any frustration on those being used to test or manipulate me.

I don't even let them know what's happening, unless a firm stand is required, I simply let it slide on by.

I know my God is confident in me and my love for him, so I view such tests as a part of His confidence in me. So, I just stick to my faith, hold a good conscience and try not to sin.

Even if I inadvertently did sin in some way, I know all is ok. Christ is my helper.

Satan is simply trying to find something to accuse me or you of. But what could be a problem is, if I, or you, allowed a trial to shake your confidence in Jehovah's provisions for salvation, and I, or you, allowed our conscience to wonder. Thinking things like: "Am I disapproved somehow?" Or other negative and futile reasonings. All trials are the same as time, here now and then, gone!

The only thing that remains is what has been bourn out by it.

Yes, Jehovah allows such trial, He however, never causes them. And after each one has completed it's course, I'm sure he is thinking, "Well done my Son or my Daughter".

Therefore; Keep awake and alert to such attacks, real or imaginary. These are a good way to ensure that you have a good foundation upon which you are building your house.

I have also considered the fact that, at times, the 'Testing', seems to be of 'Heavenly' origin.

This has a scriptural basis, for 1 Tim 3;10, when talking of those appointed should be tested as to fitness first. The fact that the Christian congregation, as was also the way with the nation of Israel and it's Law arrangement, are mirrored on heavenly arrangements. It would not be too far a stretch to imagine that, by Holy Spirit, ones "fit for service" would likewise come under divine scrutiny.

As I already mentioned, however; Satan is always, "Walking about like a roaring Lion, seeking to devour someone.

Whatever the case, if being tested by self, by Men, Satan, or Angels, or even the Holy Spirit may you keep a humble, yet righteous standing before God and always be ready for growth.

Don't be distracted by the actions of others, God's word says: "each one must carry their own load" and, more importantly, " do all things for God's glory" and " whatever you are doing, work at it whole souled, as to Jehovah".

After each occasion or every challenging day that you go through. Ask: how did I do, was I kind to others? Did I become unbalanced in any way? What from what I saw in myself can I improve upon to be more Christlike in my personality?

We too, should allow our children to have the quality of their faith tested. How else can they be honed or sharpened, how else can they be confident in who they are, who they are too be, and stand.

We should definitely remove dangers to our children or remove them from bad influence that they are not mature enough to handle. But, over time, allowing them to find their own feet. This can build them up into spiritual and emotionally mature Adult, useful to the Lord and all they meet.

I do long for the day when I am no longer treated as a piñata and something to be prodded and laughed at by the demons. But, while this day stands, I gladly accept these things, for they will fortify me and help me grow.

Satan and his mates are just week cowards. They do not harass nor assault Jehovah, do they?

For He is The Almighty one, They are not that brave. But they fight easy battles to boost their shallow ego's, to feel they have some merit, or some power. Really, they are just week little girls.

That's meant metaphorically. Little girls are in fact far more powerful and loved by God, not Satan's crowd.

Keep awake for trials like these, Not becoming heated up or surprised, for they will come.

Hold fast to your integrity and bend a little but try not to break. Never deliberately sin.

Follow the example of the Lord Jesus in all things, but especially in this. He wasn't scared of Satan, was He? Therefore; follow him closely, His courage, His Love, especially for His Father and God.

Follow in particular His guidance as we move through time under God's kingdom rule.

May you be the apple of God's eye. All will be tested, may you come off the victor.

It's for this very reason that God's word exhorts us to be; "Innocent", "Blameless", "Meek".

Recall, the words, "Happy are the mild tempered". working on these characteristics, we "shall, inherit the Earth". There are many descriptions' like these in The Holy writings of the characteristics of those who will witness first hand God's tender affection and blessings to come.

Man in expectation :)

28/02/2024 I had a dream not long before I awoke this morning.

I was with 2 of my children, It was back in time when my son was a young man, almost finishing his schooling.

In my dream, for some reason, we were playing a game of some sort that involved gambling, a thing I hate. My son lost and incurred a debt, quite substantial. He only being young and with no means of income had absolutely no way of paying the debt.

I became very angry at the situation and reacted poorly. My son said; "It's ok, I will just move out".

This was even more upsetting, for now he would not only need to provide for himself and his schooling, he still had this burden of debt hanging over his future. This was totally unacceptable.

I proposed a solution, "Lets play another game, a gambling one, It will be rigged so as to eliminate any debt incurred" and his future would again be laid out before him like a rug.

This is very clearly the predicament our forefathers have put us in. I HATE money!!!

It represents everything that the Greedy and Power Hungry, Self centred few have done to all mankind, even themselves.

Why do we need money??? You tell me!!

WHEN it IS gone, we will have one less burden upon our days, and the greatest burden it is.

If all were satisfied with "Sustenance and covering" as the scriptures encourage. That is, not having too much or too little. ALL, happy to be working a fair amount of work and at the same time being self sufficient, then we would ALL carry the load and have plenty. For example, in a self sustaining community, i can see that if all carry the load, then 30 hours maximum per week for the whole, should be plenty, unless necessity calls for it. Remember K.A.T.I.E.

Then we would have plenty of time to enjoy family and life and the works of our own hands.

Providing for ourselves and ours. For exploring nature, arts, relationships and education.

We all need to have our compass set on the paths of holiness and search for The Living God with Godly devotion as our aim. Solomon concluded his writings and his contemplations by saying:

"The whole obligation of man, Is, fear the true God and keep his commandments".

Make Him your best friend and all others will be of greater worth in your own eyes.

We all have seen with our own eyes, in our own life times, those who keep their eyes on the BAD course and the resulting damage of such a greedy, self serving attitude.

You, now however, take the time to meditate upon those who set boundaries for their feet. Those having a clear line of acceptable and unacceptable for themselves.

These later one's may have some self imposed restrictions, as encouraged by The Living God and set out in directives, but they have a set course and stability in life. Work out for yourselves your own path, in line with righteousness and you will do well. But, as a warning, never consider the thinking of men as Gospel.

For example, Jesus himself said; "If a man continues thinking about a woman, so as to have a passion for her, he has already committed adultery in his heart".

He indicated that thinking about the wife of another man in an passionate way is wrong.

You may even find you have thoughts and indeed, feelings, for another you would prefer not to have. Feelings are peculiar things, you can't always pick for whom, or when, they will develop.

But know this, if you are wise, you will keep an eye on yours, "The heart is treacherous" God's word reminds us. Left unchecked, it could become an issue. Jesus said if we "Continue" thinking about a person of the opposite or even the same sex that we are not intitled to, this could be a problem.

Natural attraction and even desire for a mate is normal. Whereas the Brothers once said; "Anything outside the sexual activity of a married couple is 'pornia' and fornication". I think that's how you spell it?

So anything and everything sexual without a marriage mate is inappropriate?

Is it good for a person to walk about being tempted or frustrated due to imposed restrictions, because they may have feelings toward someone they encounter in their day? or is it wrong to have some relief occasionally, so as to regain focus?

What about those who intend to marry and have the hope of giving, the gift, once they are married? Should they be inflamed all day long, with no way out, just to please others while they remain chaste?

This is NOT a subject for children. It is for those finding the going tough. If your Son or Daughter is giving indications that this is an issue for them personally, 'it' may be required.

Am I condoning self gratification? No, not really.

But I am saying; "Each one knows their own person". If it is that your focus and chastity of thought is troubling you, you may need to do something about it".

Of course, each one should develop self control, but I am not you, am I? And You are also not me!

Especially on Holy occasions one should remain chaste and sanctified, putting aside free will, and focusing intently upon the necessary things.

If You do find you personally are struggling with feelings of 'the Heart' that are causing you to struggle. Conduct yourself in a way so as not to become ever more frustrated and inflamed with desires for someone you may never have. But, by your power of reason, manage your need, as it may be, without further inflaming the desires of your heart. For your Heart is treacherous and will throw up inclinations and desires. But if you are mature enough, it wont be an all consuming issue.

Yes! I know it may be confusing, but such is growing to adulthood for most.

The Lord encouraged ones to "Make room for the gift" of single service and not marrying at all if they could. But look at the damage such a goal, imposed on ones hoping to serve, a goal became a requirement expected by others. Look at the results and damage of this pressure within the many churches and households that has been done throughout the centuries.

IT, self management, like marriage, is a part of free will and a personal matter only. Certainly not a topic to be joked about nor for mindless gossiped.

Likewise, It should not go beyond God's expectation of good, and never encroach upon the rights or boundaries of another. These are the conclusions I have reached on the matter, in line with scripture, history and personal experience in trying to deal with such issues.

The Apostle peter @ 1 Pet 2;19, 3;16 & 21, refers to a "Good conscience" before God and others, even the need to request a 'good conscience' from God.

How then can anyone have a good conscience before God or even self respect in themselves if going through their days, ensnared by unwanted and inflamed thoughts toward an individual the opposite sex or even desires that are natural, yet, condemned by men.

For this very reason, for many, it was an endless procession before the clergy to confess these and similar issues, and a personal embarrassment and possibly, endless frustration, a clear assault on their conscience.

Not a clear conscience at all.

Logically then, as God's word indicates that we, as individuals, may struggle with such feelings, we should also learn to self manage these. That is, we are responsible to do something about it, if it is an issue.

The religious leaders in Jesus' day were upset that the disciples were "plucking heads of grain and rubbing them (or thrashing the wheat) in their hands on the sabbath day".

They had a need and, despite mans expectations, the Lord Jesus had no problem at all with their personal, bodily needs, did he?

Paul clearly states that being "inflamed with passion" was a real thing and marriage was then encouraged to help regulate this. Also, God's word says that the body of the husband, once married, belongs to the wife and visa versa. Even going on to say; "Do not be depriving each other of it". Obviously, if this became a bargaining tool or a weapon to hurt the mate, then this could be physiologically damaging to the mate and an impetus for rebellion and the first steps toward adultery. Unless an arranged period of abstinence was required or arranged. But this should be clearly discussed and agreed on.

Within the marriage, by mutual arrangement, enough intimacy should not be too much for the other, and the much should not be too less for the other. If this for some is causing frustration for a time, self management may be required so as to keep a clear head and not becoming resentful of the other.

These things are not easy for me to write, as I have been instructed in a different way. However, common sense, and even God's word, dictates that self control can only be possible by self management and a healthy measure of self discipline also.

Once married a pair are as it says; "one flesh" your needs and theirs should be each others inclination.

Be mindful of their needs in all things and truly be a team.

In 'The Resurrection', that is, in The New System of things, under God's Kingdom Rule by Christ Jesus and the foretold and sealed 144,000 co-rulers. In the recreation, The New Eden.

This will be a time of contrast and new beginnings, for, in that day, Ones will stand up, though once asleep in death. When these return in good health and lacking nothing, those who were formerly married will no longer be in such an arrangement.

The marriages of the former days was until the death of the mate. Recall the word, "till death do us part". That being the case, some may be brought back to life in the periods to come, either during the resurrection of the 'Righteous' or the 'Unrighteous', Either one is irrelevant; The fact that you are standing is, and should be irrefutable proof to yourself that you are known personally, by The Living God, and that he foresees good for your future, IF you take ahold of the real life with both hands and strive to never forget the love Our Creator has for each and all. If your former marriage is to stand, it will stand. If not, then change is your new reality, try to accept it, not fight it. Although, You, are here, others may not be!

This could be a stumbling block for you, IF you allow it to be. Know this, In His unsearchable wisdom, the Living God can see that there is "something good in you", and all individuals who He sees fit to give another opportunity at life.

He likewise saw the danger in bringing others back. Whatever He foresaw or whatever reason He has, We, should never question nor accuse the Great One of falling short, or becoming resentful at His Great Mercy.

Maybe your very own partner did not return, possibly, as expected. Maybe they did, but they decided they have a different path than you.

Whatever the case, New Beginnings are exactly that, with your former mate, or not.

Therefore; Do not become heated up at Jehovah or you former mate etc, take the necessary time to examine, and ponder the endless opportunity that is STILL before you. Do not let grief deny you a future of your choosing, let go of the hurt.

Maybe you have never been loved by a mate or had some other experience. Whatever you're experience previously it will be a time for new beggings.

Do you think that those with ink scars in their person will return with them?

God assured us that we will have flesh fresher than in youth. The former scars, internal and external, along with our old beliefs will face a fresh perspective. One through the eyes of truth and a new reality.

Your future will be yours to set. God will give counsel and opportunity to set your feet on the paths of life. But your decisions is what will

Concerning the 'Self management' of a sexual nature, mentioned previously, this may be an option for some to help manage the 'As if' sudden loss of regular personal attention you were accustomed too.

For the reality is that, in an instant, you were transferred from there to here. From, then to now!

Your loved ones have been awaiting your return and are eager to help you adjust.

PLEASE pause a while!

Your number one priority, now and always should be, If you are wise enough to realize it, Is to develop, first, Your understanding of the great depth of Jehovah's Love, for you, and all life.

For if you cannot, or will not live in harmony with this and take it to heart yourself, there will not be another opportunity at life for you.

Love, real Love, based on righteous principles, can be a freeing set of wings for your heart, and to your soul, and if you make this Love, your new personality, you WILL prove to be a blessing to those around you, with everlasting life in view.

A day of testing will come. May you prove to be one who choses peace.

Not as it is today, an individual who happens to be in a relationship. Disposable at that.

Please keep in mind that being sanctified or Holy in God's eyes is the prime thing.

Although, in marriage, you are accountable to each other. Both are accountable before the third cord in the relationship, for your conduct, either for the good or the bad. Keep your senses in all things and prosper.

Please consider Proverbs 2;1-3;8. May your days be many and your troubles few.

Money is not needed. Neither is living a life of disconcerting thoughts and a guilty conscience imposed upon you by others. Pray incessantly, Be sure your own feet are not impeded by expectations too high.

I have seen God's word fulfilled, "The Great tribulation, The Man of Lawlessness appearing, The Workers of Lawlessness taking root, like a weed. The Disgusting thing standing where it ought not, the Apostasy and The preaching of The Good News in all the inhabited Earth. And many more.

Not one word of his has fallen short; neither will the rest. "He, will become "All things to ALL people". and the Lord WILL come. There is absolutely no reason to doubt God's Promises nor is unchangeable word.

Therefore, pay attention to yourself, never become weighed down with anxieties of life. Always cherish the things you are seeing and beholding, You are unique, you are a written record of history and proof. Learn from the things you see and hear and always, "Keep on the watch", be ready for tests, they will come. Be ready for hard times, even grief, but limit yourselves as to the length of your mourning. You are here to live, not mourne. You are here to learn, not be stuck in a moment that you can't get past.

Live and enjoy life and draw ever closer to righteousness with a balanced view, and more importantly draw close to God. He loves you and cares for you.

May you be counted among the holy ones he is eager to listen too.

There is so much more to say, but the desires of my heart are not important. The maturity and growth of yours is.

May you be with me in paradise.

Man in expectation of great things. and the peace of life, like a gentle hum. As I am awaiting the promise and am willing to wait for those I will come to love. :)

26/02/2024 These notes are also in the Blog Long Lost Family,

I personally have recently had a reunion with a "Long Lost Family" member.

Her story is just as, if not sadder than that of the many in the program previously described.

My wife and I applied to a genetics company, who links the families of the past and present.

We were looking for other reasons but to my surprise when the results came back, I had a first cousin I was not aware of. And like some in the program, She lived and grew up just 2 miles from my family home. When I saw her photo, I immediately knew who's child she was.

When I was young, my uncles were involved in a Motor Cycle club. I believe they were pretty harmless as a group, however, that didn't stop another Gang targeting them, Killing more that a few, and ruining many lives.

The uncle in question was involved with a young women at the time. She was loved by my relatives, but before long disappeared off of the scene. I have always thought this was, in part at least, due to the Club war that was going on.

On the last occasion I remember seeing her, she was injured during an attack. My uncle and his friends were enjoying some down time with their girlfriends and others at the rear of my family home, it was a nice spot, as there was a river on it with a nice beach. It should have been a relaxing evening. But not according to this rival gang.

My cousins mother came up to my parents house and was crying outside. They heard her and brought her inside. It was late at night and she was clearly distressed. She had a wound on the side of her stomach, a hole about 9mm in diameter. That evening, my uncle received an ax wound to the temple. not bad, it just caught him.

My cousin and I contacted each other and before long met. For me it was very strange, seeing someone who has my mothers eyes, but whom is not familiar to me. Even after meeting up again it's a bit hard to process. So, what happened to her once she was born?

Her birth mother was from a strict Catholic family and that as she was young and not married, she was shipped off to another state to have the baby. Apparently, only Her birth Mothers mother was the only person on that side that was aware of her existence.

She was immediately put up for adoption. And Adopted by another family who could not have children of their own, they also later adopted another child, a boy. These new parents too happened to be Catholics.

On my uncles side of the family, He was a couple of years younger than Her birth Mother, himself only a teen, on little income as He was an apprentice.

My grandmother, His Mum told him, "If you ever bring a young women home with a baby, you will be living out on the streets".

So, having zero support from either family, my cousins future was sealed.

Of course, I can only imagine the tremendous stress felt by Her parents. Also that of the parents fighting with personal beliefs and external pressures in sending a daughter and grandchild away.

That being, IF each individual involved had any pangs of conscience.

This highlights to me the struggle many, if not all parents have in doing what they hope or think is best for their own children or family.

As with many adopted ones in the T.V. program, Long Lost Family, She had a good upbringing, but never felt quite right. There was not family connection, just the same as many others.

When she was old enough, She got ahold of Her adoption papers and contacted Her birth mother. Who, in time gave her my uncles details. He attended her wedding and more than a few meeting took place with him and his wife and 2 daughters, always hoping desperately for a connection that never really came. In time,jealousy from my uncles wife eventually drove a deep wedge between them all.

Neither side of her parents extended families knew about her. My mother, the oldest of the siblings suspected she was pregnant but was never told.

When I asked my uncle if he told her why He decided not to keep her, he replied, "No".

It also turns out that her Birth mother's brother did the same thing, had a child out of wedlock who was likewise adopted out. It was only by doing the same Genetic search I did that He was discovered by my cousin.

Finally, now, after 50 years and much heart ache, She, My brand new cousin, is seeing photo's of family, connecting on Facebook and meeting her own blood relatives.

She is finally after 50 years, making contact with many by means of the internet.

I feel she has had a much harder time in Her search for family and a connection, than most being adopted and highlighted on the program.

I am proud of how strong she has been, despite many hard days. May she and her family find relief, joy, and a connection, from this day on.

Man in expectation. :)

Personal Notes; 5/1/24, I was at an outlet that sold flower seeds today. I was on the floor trying to get the information from the seed packets. Upon getting up, a person was waiting for me so I turned and said; "It's a long way up!" It happened to be a Sister from the Congregation I used to serve at. She said; "Hello ....., how are you?" Surprised, I said "Good". And I turned and walked away. Not rudely or anything, I just left the situation.

This Sister was one who went out of her way to assist those struggling with various problems of life. A caring shoulder and support.

But my dilemma is; As an active member of the congregations of J.W.s, she is in effect enabling the Apostate information and Blasphemies to perpetuate. So then, in turn by teaching these lies to others, she is likewise Apostate.

So, how can I spend time associating with her, because according to the J.W.s creed, "Anyone who is an Apostate, you simply do not talk to them!"

Also; according to the Annual General Meeting, in which the Disgusting thing Stood up and peddled the Grey Ghost, The Governing Body stated, "Anyone who says 1 word about our changing the Bible, IS an Apostate". So, in turn, I am not supposed to talk to Her or anyone else in the Organisation. Even though I have said nothing untrue, To my knowledge.

So what am I to Do? Can I talk to "Good hearted ones", and tell them my concerns? Hardly, I would soon be labeled an Apostate by all! Though, their opinion means far less to me than that of my Lord!

Just the same. it is not a desirable thing in my mind nor heart to be known as a person lacking faithfulness and actually fighting against the Holy Spirit in such a way!

But although Jesus set the example of having nothing to do with the religious leaders, nor their Scribes. That is, those versed in the Law and instructing others. A similar situation as with all active preachers of J.W.s, who should know enough to know better. The Lord Jesus did however speak to Nicodemus! John 3;1,4,9, 7;50, 19;39. But the main issue is that Jesus knew what was in the heart!

I do not!

So what am I to do? I really do not know. If however I keep finding myself in situations such as this then I can only assume it must be time for me to stand up for Jehovah and speak.

I have only ran into ones I knew from the Congregations 5 times in 10 years, I think. So IF I notice a trend then I may need to speak up. Whether a need for service of my Lord, or a trap by Satan.

I will have to see how things develop.

Man in expectation :)

9.1.24,

I am more than a little anxious about a meeting with those known as Jehovah's Witnesses. In particular the inner circle or ones who would quickly label me as "Apostate".

Not that their opinion really matters in the scheme of things, but just the same, having my faithfulness and love for My God brought into question is not desirable.

Jesus I believe went through a similar predicament. Matthew 26; 36-43 describes his anguish and personal struggle with the events surrounding his death.

He became so distressed that Luke's account states "His sweat became as drops of blood falling to the ground", Lu 22;44. I have been informed that this is a physiological reaction known in the medical world.

It was also told to me that the reasoning for his reaction, was not a lack of faith as some have suggested. But was due to the effect of these accusations reflecting on God's motives and name.

Likewise; I really am concerned that my love for God might be brought into serious doubt and my Servive of My Lord Jesus become watered down somehow. They may say; "He was a faithful brother, but fell short". Or "He hates God for he will no longer walk with us". Or "He thinks he is better than us or has lost his mind".

All things like this would sully my reputation and bring into question my God's approval of me!

My daughter, the one still associating with the congregation, recently said, "A Brother, So and So, came to me recently and said; ' I never met your father, but when I read his records his service really stood out as different, and way better than most'".

I was only a Ministerial Servant, So I never knew records of service were even kept.

I have no clue what could be in them. Maybe things like i've touched on in this Blog.

Refusing to vote for the sale of the Kingdom hall. Or the letters I gave to the Brothers about the False information coming from The Governing Body and unrighteous discission's' and conduct in our congregation. Who knows?

The truth is though, this brother had met me an more than a few occasions. He however was as the rest. going about their assigned activities and looked straight past me.

If however I were part of the Inner Circle, or blew a trumpet ahead of myself, like that Jezebel and some who love attention, maybe he would remember me.

Still, just the same; if the day arrives when I am to take a stand, I'm quite sure his attitude will change. Like Jesus with many who quickly refused to follow him at just one statement about his flesh and blood. Of course I do not like attention nor do I want any followers, still, do you think they will hear me out????

As Jesus stated in the Garden; "Not what I want, but what you want". and "Let, not my will, but yours take place".

I of course am not The Lord, but the principle is the same.

I hope it doesn't get ugly, I have a Neurological disorder, among many other ailments, and emotional situations cause me much harm. May my God remember this in the days ahead of me.

The way I see it, It is only Love that can heal all wounds. Even a reconciliation between me and those still called Jehovah's Witnesses.

And the Love that it would take, Is Jehovah. "God IS Love". 1 Jo 4;8.

Their is a song with lyrics, "Love is the bridge, that links our hearts, keeping us close, though we're apart. Love is the bridge that links us Heart to Heart". Right now, as of this day, It seems so far away that I could ever sit with "anyone called a Brother". But, If it is God's Will, then let the love that the righteous share be the glue that sticks us back together.

Of course; the "Man of lawlessness" and the Grey Ghost (The new, N.W. Translation) must be removed and repentance must be evident. But, just maybe, I will be able to worship my God with ones with a similar devotion to Him and a desire to serve Him alone, in righteousness and truth.

Man in expectation :(

18/1/24, A few nights ago, I had a dream. During my dream I saw a ballistic missile, screaming across the sky. From the north west to south east. As it got closer to me I saw it slow down on its path, very slow, almost to a stop. I got a good look at it. It was "Clean white", with a chrome bolt top looking detinater on the tip. It had vibrant blue flutes or fins. Or whatever the correct name for them is. Deep blue like the Bluest Sky.

I heard a Women's voice say; There are 2 things about it though! "The first is that 'the flutes are backwards'". I can't remember the second.

Then She said; "Watch where it goes!"

So, getting out my phone to record it for later, I tried to watch it. I lost sight of it through my phone and couldn't see where it landed, there was no explosion. But I saw it's direction.

I immediately thought that if "The flutes are backwards", that would mean it would come back on me somehow.

Later in the day I clicked as to what may have been intended by "look where it goes".

During my dream, I was opposite my fathers property , on the side of the road, the property from my dream about "The Ghost Gum" which is a blog in these writings, it also includes other dreams.

As The Missile passed me, it took a turn and headed almost due west.

Interestingly, the property was only about 5 Miles as the bird flies, at the most, from the Regional Branch Office of Jehovah's Witnesses, in my part of the world.

I was Not! associated with these till I was a grown man living far from there.

The Missile headed straight to where they are located as at this day. As I worked this out later in the day.

My conclusion is that; "The information in this Blog is going to land at the feet of the organisation, and in time, this will come to back me.

The Missile itself was sleek, with no seems or rivets. Even from the tip to its rear, it was one. Almost organic. And its vapour trail was white and clean.

Man in expectation :)

Yesterday, 27/1/24, I heard a song by Christina Perri "A thousand years". Every time I hear it, which is not much at all, I get emotional. It's like a message or letter to me personally. A message from the Holy Spirit or a loved one from the future encouraging me to "hold on"!

The lyrics are both hard to hear, heart wrenching, but a relief at the same time, if that makes sense.

I later had random memories pop into my head of days gone by and concluded it may be a nudge to include these in my Blog.

I will write the events here and add them to the Blog. #9 Dealing treacherously with the Sheep!

I recalled firstly, a young women at a 'District Assembly', prior to my leaving the Organisation of J.W.s. Or before they left me!

She was somewhere between 20 - 30 Yrs of age. It doesn't matter about her age, really.

She was vibrant and full of life, fliting from person to person in conversation. And from group to group in association with others in attendants.

She seemed to be well known and liked by all!

However, and this is the part that some of you might judge me for, She was wearing a dress that barely held her chest in. She had breasts and was determined that all would know it.

Now, I do not know who this person was or anything about her background.

Whether she was a newly interested one or a child of a well known family in the truth, I do not know.

Similarly, I do not know her motives for dressing in such a way or what psychologically motivated Her. Be it Ego or the desire to impress a particular man or many, Or, simply to outshine all others. Who knows?

The fact is though, Her desire for attention was and IS a real problem. I realise that in modern times women bear skin like it's clothing. Even wearing swimwear that really is unbecoming and makes my stomach turn.

The result of such self seeking attention is that other sisters, especially the young, will automatically do a mental comparison. "Would I look as good in that?" "My breasts are not that big :(" Etc.

And men who are seeking to be chaste in their thinking have them thrust in front of their eyes, as if in an effort to shatter their personal efforts regarding self control and faithfulness to a wife. Jesus warned about, "Continuing to think about a Woman so as to have a passion for her". If a man, or boy, is tempted by her efforts, is that going to help them either in controlling their internal battle with these things?

Really, this woman was being totally self centred, with no regard for anyone around her.

What is even worse than ALL THIS, She did it in front of The Holy Spirit.

Yes; Such occasions are for 'Spiritual instruction' and fellowship. To encourage others and be built up personally. By God's grace and blessing on such occasions. As an expression of His tender affection for each soul present. But No! She was determined it was about Her!

She was not really displaying any qualities of real attraction. Why, a woman needs only be herself, be present and let her Christlike love shine and She will be far more attractive than a trowel of makeup or surgery to enhance Her Assets. Yes, to a husband, Breasts are attractive, but if they are not a surprise then what's the big deal??? All sexual intimacy should be exactly that, Intimate, personal, private.

Not one person did I see pull her aside. Not One Brother. Not even a spiritually strong Sister was motivated by the Spirit to stand up for Jehovah God's Holiness.

Jesus was disgusted at those "Changing Money" in the temple. I'm certain He would likewise view personal displays for attention as very undesirable.

I am not surprised She was not reprimanded or asked to leave and return in something far more appropriate for the occasion. As by this stage, 2012, the end of the world of J.W.s had already arrived and they were no longer blessed by God's Spirit.

Another.

While attending this privately owned convention centre for more than a few years, The Brothers toilet facilities were away from the Assembly Hall so as to free up bathrooms for the Sisters.

One toilet stall was upsetting to me. Being privately owned and operated, it was not kept up to a Holy standard.

On the rear of one stall door it had vile words written and even a blasphemous statement, "What God want's God gets".

This was very upsetting to me, not so much to others apparently. It implied that God, My God, was a bully and really didn't care about us or me, as long as he gets what he wants.

Upon reflection, that is precisely the way the "Man of Lawlessness" has painted God today.

I'm sure the person who wrote on the toilet door was not one of faith. However these later ones were supposed to be.

Being private property I could do little about it. I spoke to a "Presiding Overseer" of a local congregation, who incidentally was a painter by trade. I explained my concern and said; "our young brothers have to go in there and read all that". He had never noticed it and was not inclined to help.

I spoke a number of times to the administration office of the facility, and waited, and waited. Nothing was done.

I have chemical sensitivities and could do little to get rid of it. But after a couple more years I had had enough. I took some chemical cleaning product and made an attempt to clean it off during one of the sessions. It only faded it. And yes, made me sick to do it.

I spoke to this Brother again and said; "Can you pop by one day if you are out this way and throw some paint over it?" He listened to me but refused to give an answer in the affirmative. So I was going to do it myself despite harm to myself again.

Then I found it had been done. I spoke to the Brother, the painter, "Did you paint the door or did the owners?" My intension was simply to thank him.

Again, He refused to answer. He was behaving in His typical power control mode.

If he did and wanted me keep His confidence, I would have. The scriptures clearly say; "Do not reveal the confidencial talk of another", Of course I doubt that would apply to serious wrongdoing.

So, yet again I found frustration upon frustration.

This Brother, a Presiding Overseer, was loved and respected. But to me something was never quite right. It was not as though he was 'Haughty' or too much Ego. But it was a Control thing. He loved to command a room. Not a sin in itself but everything seemed to be done more as a reflection of His brilliance and control of the situation than in Humble service and dispensing something good.

Once he presided over a wedding. A young couple were wed in our little Kingdom Hall. My wife attended as she knew the woman and it was not a scriptural occasion. Afterwards She even said something like; "What, was that the Brother so and so show?"

Both these individuals have a common trait. While loved and serving to their best they displayed a self glorifying attitude. Not doing all things for God's glory and a self sacrificing love for others as a priority, or personality trait.

Again, I'm not perfect, but things like these are not a desirable example for anyone who is an example to others.

Man in expectation :)

I just recently had a conversation with a man, in his early 70s I would guess.

During this, his gaze drifted, and in a soft low voice said, "I tried to save the world once", remanisingly looking at his past. Then looking at me and with a solemn voice he said; "But I failed".

A little surprised at the statement I asked him, "How did you try to save the world?"

He didn't give a direct answer, but commented, "businesses in cities, like Hong Kong, Tokyo and Sydney, restaurants and others are closing their doors, they can't earn enough money", "People aren't spending".

"But 'they' don't tell you about that, they want everyone to think everything is alright".

He then made some comments about G.D.P. and economies.

I assume he was a man of influence on the world scene for a time.

I replied that "We cant hold back the current" and that they are all puppets".

Also; that as in the days of the french revolution, people eventually stand up. "I think we are that close to change, (holding my fingers up a couple of centimeters apart), But God will do it". Or something like that.

A man asked me, jokingly, how do you keep a wife happy? You must be the only one. After I purchased something for her and said, got to keep my wife happy. I replied, " you could always act like a total idiot and then she won't expect too much from you". I was only joking, but I think I might have hit a nerve. The two men present didn't respond, even with a smile. Possibly indicating that the way they had treated women and acted personally wasn't far from the comment.

I visited a place of higher education today. It was used for regional gatherings of education, fellowship and worship of the Living God, by Jehovah's witnesses, that is when I associated with them. I walked these paths, I passed the hall where we gathered for instruction and the place outside ones were baptized. I even took a look at the rest room that I mentioned in and earlier blog. The blasphemous graffiti wasn't there. I knew though, it had been painted over. But in my minds eye I knew it was there, somewhere. It felt like time had moved on, carrying me with it.

No one knows and nobody cares. Was the feeling in my heart. The things taking place in this time are eternal, but they took no note, nobody cares. At least that's how I feel.

But of course, the Living God knows, and He cares. And so do those associated with the Woman, God's heavenly arrangement. And I'm sure, those of you in the future care. But right now. Even though I have been writing these things for quite a while now. No body still has shown to me personally that the Name of God and the glorifying of it, His Will, nor righteousness, is a matter of utmost importance.

The place I am at today is a place repeated the world over. A place that "professors" and the "elite" show off their wears. Teaching the things that will help propel this World under Satan's control forward. Though very few are aware of their employment. They neglect, in a large way, to teach one thing that is of importance.

When people look back at this archaic world they will shake their heads at the shear folly.

Right now though, I am trapped in a World in which I don't belong. My heart is with you in the future. But, while I'm here I have work to do. What that is, my God will make known.

I do not know if I have considered this before.

It is a bit ironic that Jesus was killed the way he was. The lump of timber or beam that the Lord Jesus was nailed to. In Greek was a Staros, a piece of tree, sawn and ready for use.

If it were me, being a Carpenter, I, at some point during the entire event, would have pondered the possible uses of it. The things I could use it for, a lintel, a door frame and header, a beam or veranda support post? Or I likely would have considered, what tree is this from. Would this make a nice table and chair set? For example.

But no, this was forever to be an implement for killing. What a waste.

July 19,24.

My wife and I recently saw a program on TV called, Fight to Survive. An episode covered 2 men who took a large fishing boat upstream to go hunting for game.

Before long this pair came across a Grizzly Bear, proceeded to put four bullets in it, and cut it up for it's meat.

Now, in many lands, and culture's I understand that this kind of behavior is acceptable.

For me it is very unsettling, even sad.

I took was raised with guns and my family, from time to time, would go rabbit hunting.

A pest in the country I'm from and good eating.

Usually the method was to use ferret's and catch the rabbits in nets and cage them for slaughter and butchering later, always for food.

On one occasion a kitten was captured. My Dad took it home for a pet. It was placed in a cage in our laundry, it screamed all night. Till it didn't any more. In the morning we found it dead. It was so scared that it died.

Later in life I was with a friend with air rifles.

A large parrot was down in the bush. I shot it once and instantly felt ashamed. He though, kept shooting it. I pleaded with him to stop but he kept shooting it. Til finally it fell to the ground. I ran to it and held it in my hands. It looked straight at me as the life left it's body, slowly shutting its eyes.

I realize that people need to eat. As does the Lord. Jesus declared all foods clean. But I'm sure he didn't declare heartless killing for sport, for a thrill.

I, for my part refused to use a gun, ever again. And to this day am upset at even having the ability to use one.

I refuse even to play games involving guns or killing. The ability to take even unreal life is abhorrent to me. It upsets me so much.

One of the men died when taking the bears meat back to the fishing boat. The other survived 7 days in poor conditions, till he was rescued.

These men took photos of the bear kill. The one who died and shot it was obviously thrilled to have killed this innocent animal. Holding up it's head and in another, it's large paw.

They showed off their photos at the conclusion of the program, glorifying their lust for blood.

What was more disturbing is that the two of them, I believe were Jehovah's Witnesses. The one who survived, prayed to Jehovah about his friend being a good man etc.

And the program insinuated that the poor weather and other circumstances saved him. As if God had a hand in it.

The thing that is worse is that people all over the world who see this program will assume that Jehovah's Witnesses and their God approve of such things.

Is it for no reason that the scriptures clearly say. " The name of Jehovah is being spoken of abusively, on account of you people".

These men I can almost guarantee are appointment men in the congregations. I can imagine them using their lust for killing even used from the platform in talks to the congregation, even to the children. With the photos of their exploits on social media.

Why is this ok? With the witnesses?

Because as I have already discussed in early blogs. These are all part of the 'inner circle '. The " workers of lawlessness" the "wolves in sheep's clothing" that have flourished in the modern day congregations of J.W.s.

I'm sure if asked, they and ones would argue that "we were using it for food"! But that falls short when it is not generally a species that most would consume. Also considering the obvious access to food and protein in the form of fish and the produce of the sea. That was readily available to the ones family. Almost free.

And the fact that in modern society, foods are available, some usually for a reasonable amount of money. The argument that it is necessary is a crock.

Whereas the over population of feral animals in regions causing environmental damage should be farmed for use. Often these are just slaughtered for convenience . None of these things stand up, nor are logical, let alone sustainable.

My son jokes about the expression. "To kill to birds with one stone" . Saying: 'if everyone did that their will be none left'. The reality is that if man just "kills" willy nilly then obviously the coming generations of wildlife must be impacted.

And if everyone thinks it's okay and does in fact get a gun and kill for a thrill, what will be left.

Jehovah's commission for man was to extend the garden Earth wide. Not throw it out with the carcases.

These are the things that all need to be wary of in paradise. The corrupt thinking that does not fit with Holy Spirit will from time to time creep in. Clique's are dangerous. Righteousness is eternal.

One way to work out what might be crossing the line is to ask; "could I imagine Jesus doing this or that" considering the example he set.

This too is going to be a difficult thing for many as we move forward into the near future. Many will not let go of their hearts greatest loves. Even if it means loosing Jehovah's.

I just today saw a sticker on the back of a car.

" I love fishing. I only work because I have to." Or something like that. His life was motivated to serve his hearts desired.

Don't get me wrong, I, like Paul consider myself to be a miserable man. There are things I feel I have done alright with. Others, seem to continually linger. Maybe it will take the blessing from God in the new system to correct some things. Either way, my trust is that The Living God knows and He himself has a plan to help me, and us.

I do not understand why ones can't love life, family, righteousness and God.

It's not hard to work out. Those who look internally for happiness will be lonely, and that one's future is bleak. Those who look up, find beautiful things, that one's future is full of giving. As Jesus said, there IS more happiness in giving than in receiving ".

Love life, not death.

Man in expectation:)

July 22, 2024.

I made an offer the cuff comment, saying; " I don't know why anyone would want to be the president". Re the current turmoil in the U.S.

My granddaughter said. "You would do whatever you can to serve God's kingdom, it's the same with them!" Or something to that effect.

And yet again I am learning how to see things from another perspective.

Although serving a mans government to me is utterly foreign. For many in such a position, they likely are doing their best with what they have. Knowledge and beliefs are relative. What I believe is crazy to many, I'm sure.

God knows what the heart is. And promises to grant each one "his wages for his hard work under the sun". So then, even many not known to be serving God, could likely be useful to "Him who knows what the heart is".

I was just watching a TV program on Chernobyl. The ones who went in and cleaned up the site had no real idea of the danger. The radiation killed 80% of those who. "Volunteered".

They all were given " a prize" of 800 rubles? Not sure how it's spelt.

A woman gave birth to a baby girl, the baby died 5 hours later. She was told, "Your baby absorbed the radiation you were breathing in".

How ridiculous is Satan's world. People die for this country or that. But won't lift a finger for their neighbors. The little ones absorb the toxic trash we feed them from Satan's table.

We need Jehovah's help, through His Christ, yesterday.

The mash-up! "You must love Jehovah your God, with your whole Heart, Mind, Soul and Strength and keep His Commandments. If you do, you will be wise enough to bypass any trial with ease, and have an indefinitely lasting name with The Living One. Those who fail to take these things to heart, will suffer shame and fall short in a large way, all that is his, will be destroyed and cease to exist.

You who love Him, however, will flourish with joy, under the tent cloths of Jehovah, always." Ecc 12:13, Mark 12:30 and Ps 37:18-20.

Another T.V. program stated that young children around 8 years old spend around 2 hours PER DAY, on social media sights, watching clips. They are being instructed in self indulgence. Take what ever you want, and reject the rest.

How are they going to go, as they get older, when navigating life and even the personality traits of a mate when they are heavily focused on self?

Another, an Ambulance show in the U.K. describes a sharp increase in violent knife crimes. A thing that was rare, is now common. This is further evidence about the "Great Tribulation" and the destruction of life and values. On the current trajectory, where will mankind land do you think? It can't possibly be good for the coming generations.

I recently heard a report also, about religious restrictions being further tightened in Afghanistan, a middle eastern country of strict Muslim origins of faith. They have decreed that "No woman shall read aloud to others, and, Shall never look at a male, unless of their own household".

It makes me wonder the reasoning behind such things? I'm sure in their minds the decrees are logical, but certainly not beneficial.

How can young boys grow up to view Girls or Woman as anything less that suspicious of wrongdoing, week in self control and inferior. When in fact, we are all the same under God, only a slight difference in the Womb sets our gender. Every single one of these illogical men could likewise have been female. The fact alone that women are exalted, even by the prophets should be enough for them to see the irrational thinking they have adopted.

Question; Are these men concerned about the chastity and moral inclinations of the women, or themselves? Or, also; do they think that God's Heavenly crowd of Faithful Angels, also called the Women, are also to be dispided and treated with no respect or love????

Every beloved voice is heard by God, is it not? Females are heard as well, aren't they, you hypocrites, and those whom they cry out due to are under the microscope, are they not?

Male and Female He made them. Not bully and bullied. A COMPLIMENTARY pair, no division at all. No partiality, at all before God. Yes, we all have differing and often changing responsibilities and talents. Yet "The 2 shall be One Flesh".

I have exerted myself to an extreme explaining the serious, yet simplicity of this reality. But as of this day, the blind keep shutting their eyes. And say: "I know what I can see". Look through God's eye's!

Not through the eyes of your blind instructors.

What! Do you want to be in a loving relationship, as was designed by The Holy One, one of mutual encouragement, support and love, or not???????? Or, are you saying that; 'Allah has no idea of what He is talking about?' Never may that be. Your happiness is wrapped up in obedience and living in harmony with His will, not your own.

Is it any wonder that The Kingdom of God is what we are told to pray for. Obviously, man can't be trusted with authority, look at what they do!

Human Trafficking

I heard a radio program last night. It centered around the efforts of men, fishermen from so called "poorer lands" though I suspect that often they are rich in what matters.

In an effort to help lift their family income and survive in this greed and economic driven world. They take on work contracts in foreign lands.

Big mistake, they find themselves contracted on restricted Visas. The results, they arrive in Scotland and collected by people and placed on fishing vessels. They are out at sea for days and days. Not given enough drinking water and supplies. They would eat tomatoes just to get some moisture in the mouth.

Apparently, the operation was to drag the bottom of the sea bed and drag up clams and other things.

It sounds to me that these grubs are no different from other companies and industries that rape the resource for personal gain. With no best practice employed to ensure a healthy sea bed.

And what is even better, for them, is that it is all free, free stocks, free labour, all in all a win win for them.

Paid £1:62 per day, that was never seen as this was an illusion taken to cover their so called accommodations.

After years they were maybe let go. Even if severely injured the boss would not get medical assistance for them.

After some years, of not gaining anything for their families at home. A number were allowed to stay in the U.K. and work in other industries till an authority would consider the accounts of human trafficking and abuse.

After more than a decade the result? The company was told to pay something like £2000 to those injured and give some measley fine for withholding the men's passports etc.

The result. Well, this so called authority, basically patted the company on the back and I suspect that they are still operating under the same model. Why not, hey? Free labour with not repercussion for their wickedness.

Oooh, I hate money and what is more. While the opportunity for such grubs is there, others suffer. Come Lord Jesus. Come!

29.8.24.

I asked myself, " what scriptural basis does Islam have regarding the restrictions placed upon women?" I looked up some references regarding this and it appears to be, " the interpretations of men in regard to shari'a Law."

That being the case, they all seem to be sheep, following the shepherds. But the shepherd is not God, but men.

Do not interpretations belong to God. If these things were so important, wouldn't it be both logical and clear. Or is your God a dictator?

Whereas God's word encourages us "to make sure of the more important things" and that we should worship" with spirit and truth" and to work out what is good and acceptable.

Instead of blindly following, just as Christendom has done. He also says, " the righteous one will decide for himself what is right and stick to it."

How can women shine if hid under a cloth???

I'm also curious as to why the men are not also carrying the burden of displaying humility and chastity? Or is it your own self control that you are aware is a problem, and for this reason women should be hiding, like candy before a greedy child?

Is it women that can't be trusted, or the men??

The logic behind these restrictions is illogical.

It can't be the word of God that is at fault. Can it? So, you tell me, why is this needed?

Thinking further, also, was it not God himself who formed the woman. With His own hands. Is there any defect with what He has done? Never!

If the Potter is pleased with the work of His hands, why do you men seek to hide it away like something to be ashamed of???

5/9/24

The anniversary of my birth date recently rolled around.

My parents being of a different cloth, still observe such occasions. And at times seem to still have difficulty understanding my caution regarding anything that is from false religious origins.

My God's approval is worth far far more, than all the attention such occasions might offer.

In times past I have pondered the occasion of Birthday celebrations. My conclusion is that the child is being given glory and attention, with the potential to spoil such ones, simply because another day rolled by. Yes, children are a blessing and a source of great joy, especially when young. But in my mind, if any occasion arises for a child, or even an adult that MIGHT be acknowledge, surely it is to give thanks to God for the blessings and joy that life brings. And an occasion to "Honor" your parents.

That being the case. This year I sent a card to my parents. It read something like this.

To my parents,

God's Word encourages at Eph 6:2-3; "Honor your father and your mother.... that it might go well with you".

You both not only gave me life, but the foundation of good things, on which all else in my life has been built.

In my mind, a date of birth should not be an occasion to reward one for being born.

If anything, it should be a day of rememberance of those who made all my days possible.

I do, honor, respect and love you both.

Lots of love ..... ... :)

I am not instituting another day. Nor do any of us need such a day as a reminder of how great eayohwah is, or for the gratitude we owe our parents or others who helped us stand, walk and run. Each one must carry their own load and decide for themselves what is right.

Enforcing days of tradition unnecessarily could prove to be a trap. However, months and seasons and worship, are always an opportunity for coming together.

In fact, celebrating things is an expression of thanks, of love and of hope. Do you recall the "women who lost her coin?" or the celebration "For the son that was lost, but now is found?" Any time your blessed can be a private moment of thanksgiving, or an occasion to share your joy with others.

Maybe you love to entertain, like the family in the story/vision of the two Sisters.

Warning examples are in God's word for a reason. "God is not one to be mocked, whatever a person is sowing, this they will also reap!"

Take some examples from Daniels writings; King Nebuchadnezzar was the "King of kings" the one over all the earth whom God appointed, even to humiliate Israel. He was warned, first in his dream and then by the interpretation to remember His place, and to acknowledge and know that Jehovah is alone good and able to raise up, or tear down, even the mightiest of kings. Before long, He forgot the counsel and the warning and wallowed in his achievements, celebrating his rule, and his achievements, his glory, as though they were his alone. This was a personal celebration, short lived. He was humiliated, but as foretold grew in understanding.

His Grandson, who ruled after Nebuchadnezzar did not pay attention to these things.

Belshazzar, it was that gave no consideration to The Most High as they got drunk and defiled the Holy Utensils from the Temple in Jerusalem. He died that night.

These examples are not to ward you off from celebration or thanksgiving, but as a reminder, if your heart is drifting, to the right or to the left, as was these kings, celebration, and alcohol are a sure way that these will manifest.

If however, Like Daniel and Azariah, Mishael and Hananiah you keep in mind who we should love, above ALL others and even self, guarding against a wrong step, with your powers of reason and Godly devotion, all occasions will be a cause for joy and not discipline, while loving your God and keeping His commandment. Yes! He is your life, and the length of your days, He made Kings stand, or fall, based on their hearts and relationship with Him. So, remember, you are His joy, His cause for celebration and if you keep him in mind and heart, always, like Daniel, you will be thought of as "Desirable".

Check This Out

I was recently at an Audiologists office and saw a poster similar to this.

I thought it was hilarious, as a Miracle to me is of extraordinary origins and usually associated with the power of Holy Spirit, not associated with Nature as if it is some powerful force with abilities to alter realities for good.

I looked up the word "Miracle" in my dictionary which in a way supports the posters use of the word.

"A wonderful thing; a marvel."

That doesn't sound right to me. A wonderful thing is a beautiful sun set. Children at play, and a marvel is like a good deed though unexpected, or the wisdom out of the mouths of babes. For example

Miraculous though goes further

In the publication, Insight on The Scriptures Vol 2, It states; "Miracles - Occurrences that excite wonder or astonishment; effects in the physical world that surpass all known human or natural powers and are therefore attributed to supernatural agency."

It is also: "amazing to the eye of the beholder, is something beyond his ability or even to understand fully."

There are many things that are obvious and evident, though we still don't fully understand them. That though really isn't miraculous, it's just more than I have an understanding of.

Like, how our Sun, keeps burning brightly, though doesn't die out.

A true miracle in the scriptures are things like healing by just a word. Or walking on water, Being saved from a fiery furnace, or an Angel stopping the mouths of lions, or the power of Holy Spirit to regenerate life from the dust. All these things are miraculous to me. But not to God.

Regarding the poster and miracles being attributed to nature, well, that's not a miracle at all.

It is obviously a work of a fear inspiring Master Designer.

If you take note of all the components and their functions, you see intricate design. An item, fit for purpose. Not only is this one component in all our heads, yes, a marvel. It, being made of flesh and bone, is also connects to a super computer of flesh.

If our brain could not interpret the vibrations and convert them into recognizable signals. Our ears, eyes and our ability to feel, would be useless. But look at how grand they are.

Not only is, 'seeing' children at play wonderful, hearing gives the scene depth of feeling, emotional interaction and makes the viewer, or hearer a part of the scene.

What a wonderful gift of Creation our bodies are. It's little wonder David was moved by the works of God's hands. "In a fear inspiring way I am wonderfully made."

Seeing how He, His Firstborn Son and all the Holy Angels have invested all this in you.

Will you always show your appreciation? Or would you use these gifts from Our Loving Father to cause hurt to others, to life and to His heart? Never would that happen.

I know I want to be like my God, perfect, not defective, and like Satan and others who resisted Love and didn't appreciate the free gift of life.

Are our ears a miracle? No, in fact they are common among the creatures of Earth. Many animals have far grander and delicate ears than ours.

To attribute such things to nature or call them a miracle is negligent at best. My Father has given you these things. Not to prove His power or God ship, but because he loves you. He wants us to enjoy the things around us. To be engaged in them, to be part of His Love that is manifested as a free gift.

Can you imagine what life would be like without ears that work? Or eyes that see?

In the appointed time all will have these things, with perfection. God even promised you that " no resident will say I am sick". Then we will be free to use our gifts to fully enjoy the works of His hands. Now, that, Is a miracle.

I just watched a movie. I quite liked the message of hope, despite hardship, even if hope is lost for a while. A statistic appeared at the end of the movie. 28% of aa children in the world, live without their biological father. 24.7 million of them in america alone.

The message was, "there is enough love to go around, we just have to share it"!

A beautiful thought, but while we are separated from God's wisdom, guidance and kingdom, frustration of hope will abound. God is patient with us, He will help us to get it right.

He will allow things to test your growth. Will you succumb to pride or independence or will you recognize the wisdom of humility.

I had a peculiar dream last night. 10/9/24, the 9th at the time in the U.S..

There was this podium, it was made of a light colored timber, pine maybe. It was a square pedestal with a slant top on it. Maybe 1 1/2 foot square pedestal and 2 foot square top on it.

It spun, this way then that way. It meant there then turned back. This went on for some time.

Till it stood up straight, facing front.

The pedestal was told it had a new name. Kamala Harris. It was a representation of rulership and government of the US. No one knew which way it should face till they realized that Kamala was about to win. Then, a man who looked like an almost dead man appeared behind it. He put his hands on it and tried to squeeze the life out of it. Then, look, I was going up a glass elevator and there was a building near by. All glass, a tower type. And as I rose, look, each level of the tower was vacant, ransacked and all that remained were building materials strewn about. Ransacked and bare.

Curious. I wonder if it is a forewarning. I don't particularly care about governance so it was odd for me to dream such a thing.

I mentioned somewhere about a movie re the book of Daniel. I wasn't as disappointed with this one, as the many I refuse to even consider watching. Hollywood and Christendom always exaggerate the dramatic at the expense of the message. In this one they did well, in that they touched on historical and prophetic points that I was surprised they included.

However, they, as usual, and as directed by the producer's benefactors, missed the entire purpose of, not only the book of Daniel, but all God's word. That is, the glorifying of God's name and the clarification of who the individual is behind the name. In doing as they have, and always do, they talk up. The Holy one of Israel, The Most High, and other such titles, that only gives a perspective of His hands work.

By missing the point that his name, Jehovah, as is openly acknowledged by scholars and educated ones, though they still obscure it, they miss the opportunity to inform the meaning behind His name, His personality, His purpose as our Father who is desperately trying to reach out to our hearts. Not to dictate to us, but as Daniel's writing s prove. That He alone is our future, and our hope. Not just some God of an insignificant nation or powerful performer of miracles.

When the decrees went out from the kings who had come to this realization, they did not hide God's name, no! On the contrary, they glorified it and the identity of the one who bears it.

I long for the day when His name, will be so imbedded in our hearts, we will all feel it's meaning. To times indefinite. And those who sought to obscure it, will feel regret.

Not that I want them to, no, but it is a very sad thing that has been done to my God and my Father. It is a good thing that he remembers that we are dust, for who could stand if it were a man judging. But thankfully, we have a helper in the Christ, who took imitates His God in that he is patient with us, not wanting any to be destroyed. How wonderful is My God??? May He be praised for all times.

P.s. those who do feel shame or regrets at there past, should and will soon find it replaced with abounding joy and thanks, because of the depths of His Love will overtake us and simply flood over us that we will not be helping back by guilt, for our God loves you and me and all. Yes, thank you for your name, Almighty God, amen.

24.9.24

I was dreaming last night. And someone mentioned having to slaughter 70 bulls.

A really random thing for me personally to hear.

I, out of curiosity, thought, " that sounds like a biblical verse, I will look it up". So I did.

It refers to part of the sacrifices for the festival of tabernacles.

This is more than a bit curious as this festival was the forerunner of the Christ preparing the way for The Almighty One to once again "tabernacle", or reside with man.

Regards sacrifice of animals etc, sacrifice of a greater value made all these redundant. The Christ or Messiah gave Himself willingly for us so this is no longer required of man. We can and should always be offering prayers of thanksgiving and request for forgiveness of our sins.

If anything or what this might mean today, or for me personally, or mankind, I don't know. Maybe soon we will. Maybe it's another deception by the wicked One.

25.9.24.

I had a conversation with an acquaintance today. He related an experience of a lady he grew up with from "The Truth" or associated and baptised as one of Jehovah's Witnesses.

Without going into detail. She was shunned after the sins of another. Treated poorly, as if she was in the wrong and hung out to dry.

Of course I do not know her personal experience after the betrayal. But the facts again are that, ' after the sinner was dealt with' the burden was upon her to keep the peace within the congregation and show "Christ like love"??? The sinner, once 'dealt with' by the elders, eventually regained his good standing while the victim is without a helper.

So much so is the poor treatment for this sheep, that although an adult and no longer a sheep of their flock, she is restricted by her parents when even making decisions for her own children.

The grandfather even humiliated the child in front of a party full of friends. He may have felt justified in pulling the child from a situation not accustomed to J.W.s. But the reality is, the mother is the parent and guardian.

The grandfather and ones like him, when treating a 'Goat' as they call them the way they do. Are ignoring God's word. "Anyone who does not take care of a person of his own household, is worse than a person without faith. The unbalanced view towards lost sheep among J.W.s is a sad affair. One prophesied by the prophets. Re the rams, v, the scattered sheep. Jah will collect them back, and those who are of the so called"sheep" will be humiliated.

17/11/2024

There seems to have been a shift in the Holy Spirit, or something else. I am noticing and sensing a change.

In the past couple of months, I was pretty much stopped from writing or completing sections my Blog posts.

But just the other day it popped into my head to add to the Introduction and to add to the section, I Want To Talk To You about You.

Then, out of nowhere my daughter, still associating with J.W.s began sharing and talking to others, and myself about particular posts. This is interesting as the only times any of my children gave these things attention was when I needed help to upload things etc.

then yesterday I looked at the activity on the blog website to find that it had tripled from the meager average interest it was getting.

This too after I received my only likes, and a request to assist with exposure to improve traffic.

I replied to this person that I wanted the site to gain momentum organically, and that if God were to bless this site, He will make it happen in it's due time. Or something like that.

Maybe I have just been through another period of testing? I also got my grandson to take a photo of a cloud. I will try to put it in the Blog that it relates to. and possibly here also.

It looks exactly like a dragon gliding through the sky with a peculiar dense section in front like its breathing fire.

See the section I am talking about, weird hey.

What all or any of this means, I do not know. But, there definitely appears to have been some adjustment in the flow of Holy Spirit.

Oh', Maybe it is also due to the sealing of power in the "Feet of Iron and Clay". That is, the foretold throne of the offshoot of Rome. For Daniel was inspired to write, "The decision is announced by messengers, the Holy One's declaire the verdict, so that the living may know that The Most High is sovereign over all the kingdoms on Earth and gives them to anyone He wishes and sets over them the lowliest of people". Da 4:17.

Of course the "Lowliest" was and will be the Lord who was called Jesus. But He has a new name, what a thrill it will be to learn that one.

But my point is, that The Living and Great One, distributes His Spirit or Active Force, as it is and where it is required. So, when I say I was possibly 'Tested', at times this simply can mean that Holy Spirit was not with me as much as I might be accustomed to at times. Therefore, the test, is a personal one. How will I go without assistance from my Father, so to speak. While Holy Spirit is absent, will your internal desires or thought lead you, or will the lessons learned be enough of a safe guard when you are left all alone??

It is now April 2025.

I found a statement from the US president recently informing. He, during his rampages against the economies of his enemies and even his friends, made a comment. Something along the lines of, he has an affinity for the UK. Interesting, why?

Although The US has had its independence from Mother England for centuries now, the scriptural truth has been proven again by his statement. God foretold the current world power would be the joint Anglo/American one. Also described as the feet of Iron and Clay.

Their love also for Israel is telling. Who or how the announcement of "peace and security" comes about will be seen from, is going to be telling. As "instant destruction" is said to follow.

But this Affinity statement is important non the less.